whatever happens to you, whatever happens to me, i hope that I'll fall asleep, knowing that you'll always be the story with no ending.

dear world,


a year and half ago, this incredibly amazing thing happened to me.
i was sitting in lin's math class next to my, at the time, bestfren Dakota.
in walked this adorable kid, with a shy smile and a quite voice.
i don't think i ever told him this, but i knew right then i had to know him.

me and dakota made a pact that by the end of the first quarter we HAD to be friends with him. [:

so, this really funny thing happened.
everytime i tried to talk to him i got all nervous and toung-tied
and everything i said felt stupid to me.
i got these giant butterflies in the pit of my stomach and they drove me insane.

i talked to him for hours at night.
skype was my new bestfriend.
:)

we were always together at school.
i didn't ever want him to leave my side.

but, all this was so wrong to me.
i was an awful person because i wasn't supposed to be felling like this.
i had a boyfrenn and this kid was not my boyfrenn.

i finally realized that, even though it happened at a crappy time.
this was meant to be<3

early september we started dating.
i couldn't have been happier.
he was this new and perfect thing to me.
he treated me differently then anyone else had.
he was sweet and he cared.
i mattered to him and no matter what, he understood.
or he tried to.
he didn't judge me.

but, i had a problem letting go of the only thing that had been stable in my life for almost a year.
i still feel bad about my emotional tossup.
it was hard to see myself with anyone else but that other kid.
so i broke up with tommy.

it's safe to say, even though we had been together only like 3 weeks,
half the school was devastated.
but it helped me so much.

skip ahead to October 19th.
i was sitting in my living room watching some horror movie on tv, while texting Tommy.
he was out with Devon at some haunted house.
he was telling me about some girls they were with and how one was all over him and such.
i was so mad.
needless to say i asked him back out that night.
i didn't want to ever think about him being with anyone else.

it was so easy to fall for him.
everything he did was beautiful and perfect.
everything he said to me gave me butterflies.

even now when he tells me he loves me i can't stop smiling
he has this insane power of me.


i love him.
more then i can ever describe.
when i'm with him there really is no one else.
nothing else matters.
i think i pushed him away when we first met because he terrified me.
i mentally pushed him as far away from me as possible
because i couldn't let him know that he had the power to ruin me.
he's become my life.

cliche and unoriginal as it sounds,
it's true.
i never thought i could love anyone as much as i love him.
his feelings.
his happiness.
matter more to me then anyone else's.
more then my own even.

not a day goes by when he's not on my mind.
not a night goes by when i don't think about him before i go to sleep.
and there is never a morning that goes by when he's not my first thought.

i want to feel like this forever.
i feel more in love with him then anyone else in the entire world.
he can't ever find anyone who loves him more then i do.
i'd die for him.

the best feeling in my world,
is when it's just me and him
and we're laying together,
our breathing aligned,
silent.
he's holding me tightly
and holding my hand
and i'm curled up to his side.
it's prefect<3

i know that we've had our fair share of fights.
and tears
and screams.
but i know that we can make it through anything.
because no matter what happens,
he loves me. :)
and he can't get rid of meee.


lovezzzzz.
-Alisha<3


ps.
i love you mi amor. <3
forever and ever.
you are my life.
and i'm so glad i met you.
i don't know how i could survive without you.